Zahir

Am reading Zahir .........

well gotta go abhi thoda kaam hai phir likhta hoon .............

My Birthday People

hi all ........... it is my birthday today .........

m already having a blst started in d nite .............. had a party in the hostel ........... mast surprise got a cake .............. nd njoyed wid every body

sab ke sab saath main gappe marte rahe .......... khate peete rahe ...........

still when i write this post ............ i have cake in my hairs............. nd all the sweet memories .........

its so nice on this one day of the year .............

was special ................ more so wid so many people calling nd wishin .........

chalo still the whole day ahead to go ............ aaj ke din masti karne ka ghoomne phirne ka aur kaam nahin karne ka .............

Back Again for here I can speak my mind !!

Alas, I am back again
Writing when I don't want to write
Reading when I don't want to
Listening what my ears don't want

How bad it is,
A life without aim,
without a reson worth enough,
worth enough to fire you within

How bad it is when you are all alone
Sitting in the lab
Scribbling a Blog
When a thesis report is what shall be written

Whom to blame
Blame it on the system
But who makes the system
Does that matters

Whoever makes the system
Student will suffer
For he will have to read what he despise
Write reports when he want to see movies

But then this is life
Life I am going to miss
For when else I can sit
Mending my ends

Mending my ends at 2 in night
Stretching my limits
Of time, Of Mind
For all the work to be done

Alas, here I am again
Writing reports,
Giving presentations,
Taking stands

While world is at large
People are without food
Much has to be done
But then, Who knows !

Who knows, how much I can do
Easiest thing in life is to speak
But then
"It's easier said than done"

Lets see how much I am able to do
What I think
What I dream
What I aspire ...........

so people once again on the blog ......... writing it at the expense of the precious 30 minutes that should have been utilised for writing thesis ......... but then there is the whole night with me .....

I wonder once out of the college I am really going to miss these overnight stints int the labs ...... but then there are better things to miss ...........

neways let me go back to my thesis ........

Ever Compared a Drunkard with Rose

Soaker

A gaol of loneliness,
The value of togetherness,
For those who never honoured
Each, even with a tip of hat.

They join hands,
Determine and deliberate,
When that beautiful treasure,
Rose is plucked.

Oh! The expression is astute,
Pink of health withered,
And face turned pale white
Ah! It’s the petals next.

That Sucker draped in Black,
No, not the honey bee
But that Intruder
Delved in vascular! Alas!

Symbol of life, happiness
Is charring in Day
Oh! Drooping so low,
Brown leaves gone at last.

I am sweating
He is thirsty
Gosh! The cusp broken
Water already gone a few sand-watches back

Process was true, immortal
As though the metamorphosis
Metamorphosis of Aryan to Soaker,
Soaker to withered beauty.

Ah! Now I gather
Soaker is a Rose stem.

One more from the collection

191/64/193 ‘Birth of Death’

Busy! Busy!
Murmured the whole room;
Moaned the old angel.

Now I am there just beside you;
No business! I will be there throughout;
Don’t look me through thy eyes,
Eyes that have turned stone,
Eyes that have become still and lifeless;
I know you want to talk to me,
But dare not to do so!
You have talked to me of the heights of sky,
Now its my chance.

Who knew that, that strong being would sublime one day,
What a folly it is!
A person who never lost her will,
A person who faced every difficulty,
with cup of life filled up to the brim,
the person who saw her daughter turn to dust,
being carried away against her will.

But I was happy to be there till the end,
The very end of my Grandma’s life.

“You rascal, bought a gift for your mother and not for me”;
I promised to bring her one;
And fulfilled it though she was senseless to feel its grace.
She went to heaven draped in a saree,
Saree, I bought, from my money, my very own money.

She looked as though a motherly figure,
an angel draped in white.
And she was ultimately burnt, in the broad day light.
How strong she was to bear the heat;
heat of love, heat of separation.

And yet another chapter closed down in the corporation-
“Saraswati Devi, w/o Late Shri Om Dutt Sharma dead”.
Registration number 191/64/193.

See I could write like this too !!

Birthdate

“Nay, not to you Punster”-

And she disavowed to tell me the Day,

whom she adorned with her sweet being come into existence;

whom she with feeble feet stepped life into;

whom she with wild eyes gave greenery and colour;

whom she, with golden hairs and Power of Creation,

draped in love;

Yet, He was unknown to me, her Birthdate.

Hey thee, sublime thy thoughts,

Thee stare, thee aspire, yet don’t talk;

Thee sickle thy dissentinent.

I was sickle for being festive;

Alas! I don’t want to be a weeping philosopher;

Nor do I want to be cool my heart with groans,

Or to be a flamboyant assert;

Why keep thy face as pale and white as marble?

Why keep thy expressions as grave and deep as Ocean?

Why keep thy heart as hard and tyrannical as stone,

and words as sharp as sword?

Why not sublime thy ardors,

Why the whole Earth be grey? I am enow for it-

I wan animadverted upon as a Punster,

For I make everyone live;

Live to the utmost lees of their life;

Was the act intentional or a joke on a Joker,

I am unaware of,

But, unknowingly knowingly,

It did hurt this Joker;

It seems as if I have started loving her!

Tried ..... lets see is it worth it !

Companion

“No”, a pinching arrow was shot from her mouth,

like a bow separated with two lips;

I don’t know what I did;

I don’t know, what she concluded;

I don’t know what happened to that golden-haired,

blue-eyed companion;

She hit me with flints;

On my back, on my Face-

He was slapped with words and abuses;

And then something strange happened,

SSSSSSSSSSSSSSS…………. and came a slap,

which brought me back to Earth.

And there, in front of my door was standing-

The beloved companion of mine,

astounded on my facial expressions, my Goat.

She gave me an aspiring look and neighed for my company;

And I, an obedient lover, went straight to her;

I will always give her company-

When the Sun is young, when the moon is old;

When there is draught, when there is spring;

When there is desperation, when there is satisfaction;

For that moaning creature,

Is a symbol of golden silence to me –

A blabber – mouthed person.

Major Aila Re !!

aisa kyun hota hai baar baar
major aate hai har baar

jaane kab se hai mujhko intezaar
major ho finally khatam mere yaar

dhoondhta hoo main kabhi
life bina EXAMS ki

lekin milta hai har ek baar
Ek NAYA challenge mere yaar

life hai ek MAJOR mere yaar
Preparations kar lo sab saath saath

Its so boring and monotonous to be having examinations for all those subjects you never relished, you never wanted. Anyways blame it on the system we have to give it. I just thought what if the system didn't have exams in it.........

BAAP RE!!!! main to kabhi padhta hi nahin

abhi exams main itna lathargic hoon ......... agar nahin ho then to ho jaye kalyan

neways i am starting with my majors tommorow. 10th Dec tak ragdenge ..........

so all keep studying ........... njoy..... cheers and GUD LUCK

Masti ka naya funda !!

masti karne ka bindaas is the mantra to all ...........

its the smile that can cut many a distances ........... distances so long and so short that they can neither be measured nor bridged......

thus in life just keep on smiling for your smile can free the atmosphere and the people around ....

so live life king size...... smile and make others smile.... nd when it may so happen that people around you start hating you for absolutely no reason; they start talking about you at your back; do not stop smiling just take everything in a stride because than that is the part of life .....

let not the person sitting across feel that he is not being believed ....

thus hide yourself ...... ur true self behind your bubbly, goofy smile!!

BAHUT HI BURA FUNDA THA hai na :)

My first driving lesson !!

i thought why not write about some memorable moments; moments that i have enjoyed, that are adventurous to me............... not to mention this blog will have all that i want to tell and not what i want to hide !!!!!!

SO to start with my first driving lesson today ...........

bindaas types gaadi seekhne ka bidu lekin dar lgta hai ............ bole to gud gud hoti hai deep within!!

It was nice today with my first trial on the INNOVA and my guide ...... who else Puneet Chandra

Imagine somebody coolly sitting beside you and saying that asshole if you pull on the accelerator a little harder you are going to bang into that car in the front ........... :-)
But it was nice ...... finally laid my hand onto something i always wanted to learn ......

aage aage dekho boss kya hota hai !!!!!

EarlyMorning Musings

hi again

just wondering how many times do u really feel the importance of a person in your life. Or for that matter how many times do you feel that u need a person to bridge all that you couldn't do ; to listen all that you can't say ................

someday i dream of a person ................ who can understand everything by looking my face ............. give me a patient hearing ................... give me sweet rebukes ............... give me that consolation ............ give me that support .............

finally i understand its asking too much from somebody ............ your life has to be handled only by u ...... nobody on this earth can ever handle it for u .............. but does this make the role of a friend redundant ..... no absolutely not ............

friends are thr to pick u when u fall while trying to do what is right ............. while they can't work for you they can give that cushion of comfort that somebody is thr at ur back ........... somebody u can look up to ..... but again friends are difficult to find .............

And when at all you find a certain insecurity arises ............. especially with friends of opposite sex ...... but being with a person of opposite sex and seeing a relationship mature is one of the most beautiful things in life ............. it is interesting, mysterious, adventurous and wat not ..........

Insecurity in losing luv makes us mistakenly lose the friend in them but the insecurity of losing a friend makes us fall in love with them !!

The worst part of life is missing a friend ...... But d best part of life is having a friend worth missing !!!!!

Happiness : the most illusive term on earth

I think so nebody reading this blog of mine shall dismiss me as a pessimist or a moron ........... for killing their time with such useless thoughts of mine .............

But their are things that you can't always say to all, or for that matter can't even write everywhere ........... BLOG helps !!!!!!

I was wondering what exactly is happiness ........... the most illusive term ........... for a drunkard it is a nice wine party ............. for a philanthrophist it is the help he does ............. for a business man it is the money he earns ............... the only irony being that everybody else considers others happiness trivial ............ a businessman earning is useless for a drunkard and vice versa.

After all who exactly can judge that the particular situation is supposed to be a happy one for the person ................. I feel nobody can ever judge this ................. for happiness isn't all that material experiences ..... least the money and other worldly things ...................

Happiness in my view is what makes you feel light ............. it is what relieves you of all pressures ........ it i from within and it is totally vary of the rationale ............ no rationale can ever define whether the situation is worth being happy ................ for even a robber is happy (nd no rationale an ever approve of it) ................ thus happiness is what a person feels ........... it has to be heart strong and not necessarily head strong .....................

Happiness is when a person can lay back and just njoy it with his eyes closed ................. Happiness is when a person sleeps without any worries in mind .............. happiness is what your face reflects ........ what your voice reflects ...............

However the only thing is that with your happiness somebody else should not be sad ............ with ur happiness somebody should not be harmed ............

live and let live is what the proverb says ....................

I say Live and let live happily ................... for the life is too short to fight ............... lets all be happy nd make others happy too .....................

Its just a smile that can bridge all gaps !!!!!!

Failure Daunts

Never thought that I would actually come back to write something on this space of the web. Well now thats the irony ......... i actually came here to write something I couldn't anywhere.

Just contemplating over what is failure. How at all you face a failure? I am completely at loss of words and most importantly I am at a loss of thoughts as to how would I ever react to a failure. Perhaps with defiance, or with ignorance or with a determined grit to overthrew my failure into a success.

Ideally ( actually most of us, most of the times tend to be like this) any one of us would choose the third way. But when I thought about it I found my reactions growing from defiance (that i have not failed) to ignorance (that it has happened) and to a much less extent the third option; for i failed because i did not have any of those third option in the first place ...........


Neverthless lets try to face it as it comes. Lets face it head on !

Pesonal Dilemmas and Stigmas

In every relationship, every kinship; the biggest problem is because of two views, viz, MY and OUR view.

I do not know how nice it would be writing with specific instances but one thing is sure; the best pals you are the best is your chance of friction. Somebody forced me to think what is the most ideal relationship; is it always about giving space; is it always about submitting; is it always about ego; about ideals u cherished for so long; about ways u make each other happy or about ways u make each other comfortable.

For this itself is the greatest problem and dilemma anybody face. It may so happen - infact most of the times it do - that in a tryst to make somebody happy u take away the comfort. Many would not adhere to my views saying that both of them go hand in hand. But with utterly happy and accomodative atmosphere you have a submissive attitude, you tend to forget your views, it become OUR VIEW and then this may harm personally. But contrary to all the above claims this OUR is the key to happy life.

The biggest problem in anybody's life is how to create a metiuculous balance in between MY nd OUR view. And then it is always the plain smoothening effect. Can this work in practical world?

Yes, to some extent when you cherish the OUR view and mould it as per MY view, things may go fine. But that is the most difficult thing one can even dream of ..............

how to keep up your personal convictions, personal views and personal ideals intact while not harming your ever cherished kinship, the OUR relationship.

I don't know how many agree with me . ......... but i agree with the views John D Rockefeller had.

The most contradictory figure I think the world ever had. The ruthless business man on one side and the benevolent and the largest philanthropist on the other hand.

He held close his religious ideal to give shape and justify both his philanthropies as well as his shrewd business practices.

The best way is to walk to the middle ............ have an OUR view and never drop your MY view ....... thats wat democracy is ........... thts wat life is .........

And yes the most common way of soughting out a clearcut fight , a clearcut friction is not always the best, u have better things to employ ur energy into ........

I agree that we disagree; still we are here for a greater purpose, so lets do it !!!!!